“Aqilah Azmi's Territory”

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I had just went home from my grandpa's funeral. It's quite a sunny day. I had sunburn and now I could see myself getting darker. My hands got striped. Both dark and fair sides. How nice.

Grandpa looked pale and helpless. He wasn't the one who'd always smile to me anymore. Now, he's gone forever.

Inilah takdir. Siapalah kita nak tolak takdir kan? Redha je lah. Allah's always has a better plan.



I cried, finally.

Half of me died

I was browsing astro tutor tv when I received my sister's call. She said that my grandfather died. Just now. 10mins ago, I think. I lost both of my grandpas. I felt like crying, but I'm not. I just felt that half of me died. He's the friendly, he loves to tell his grandchild about war he joined when he was young, we aren't that close, but ofc, he's my grandpa so I love him very much. I'll miss his smile, forever. I will miss the moment I hold his hand, skinny and wrinkled. The time he was making jokes on the hospital bed and made everyone laughed. I'll miss this.







Obviously, my brother doesn't want me to study. Shit.

Him : I bought a World War game, you can either choose Russian or German
Me  : Really? For damn real man. Memang tak nak qila study eh?
Him : *mumbled about the game*

The Red Orchestra 2 , Heroes of Stalingrad :3

OKAY LEPAS SPM.
GAME ON

SPM is being a nightmare lately. It scares the hell out of me now. I can't even have my usual 6 hours sleep. I wasn't waking myself up, it's automatic. I woke up around 1, and slept back around 1.30. How nice.

Well I'm sure everyone is studying hard. Struggling half-dead and shits. In case you are wondering, no I don't really struggle to death. Tak tahulah bila :(
I felt creepy to scroll down my TL and Facebook newsfeed.

Btw, I got a new fact made today - my brother smells absolutely horrible when he farted. I called him the Silent Killer.



As typical, usual, all of the examination candidates will point out their wrongdoings, saying sorry and hoping others to pray for them, again, hoping God blessed them. Yeah, I don't think that's annoying. I mean, common, since when apologizing being such a sin?

So I was blog-walking and I read few posts of my dearest batch, begging for forgiveness as their knees are both on the floor. Muahaha *evil laugh* Nahh, just kidding.

Wtv it is, I've made up my mind to join them. I realized that if I kept on pampering my ego, I could lost everything. So here it is, okay I don't. No. Erh. Let's say.. urh. Well nvm. I just don't know how to make a wonderful script. I don't., you know saying few lovely words and things. Just that, I'm sorry for my wrongdoings, I know, I've been such a badass and sometimes I ruined pretty much things. Okay, I'm sorry. I'm sorry if I've ever ruin your life, moods, days or anything. You know we're humans. We made mistake. Frankly, I wish I could go back, to change myself, being a nerd, scored best on my academic, no slacking-off, or being just as good as my brother or my sister. I wish I could go back, back to the beginning.

And for you, I've learned so hard to forget every hardships you've ever put me into *well if you have*, each and every irritating words, Allah's will, I've forgave them. I might hate some of you, I'm sorry, but now I tried to keep the good side of you forever in my memories.

I don't ask much - when you're praying, please put my name inside your dua.
Thanks ♥

In an excellent mood. I wasn't craving to go to any delicious deli right now. Okay, I failed to have my beauty sleep last night, I slept around 9, then bamm, woke up at 11, in famine, searching for food like a monster. I've even watch Fairly Legal and do some History homework. I don't plan this.

So this morning while I was washing all of the dishes and do the laundry, my sister approached me and asked weather I want to go out or planning any fun shit to do. Well, I don't plan any, not in the mood to go out for shopping. Suddenly, while I was busy doing my job, I heard my lil bro talking to mum about going IKEA. I thought we're the people who sell furniture -.- okay whatever. So we're not going anywhere, I guess.

That excellent idea just came out of his brain, exactly like Pegasus from the head of Medusa. Bravo lil bro. Do you wan't an award for that?

Nah, just kidding ;)

Read this in despair, as I was when I was typing it.

I don't like to fight.
This is us. We'll be fighting like crazy. Sometimes, we forgot what we are fighting for. But later, the animosity vanished like a puff of smoke.

She has always be with you. What is she? I mean for Godsake, is she a kind of your guardian angel or shits?
This is the third time we fight about this.


I'm getting tired  fighting for you. I mean, I fight for you. I'm not sure if you've ever fight for me.







Dearest Aqilah,

It's 10.20 p.m and you're still sitting in front of me and editing your blog. You should be studying, doing homeworks and stuffs right now, not this. Maybe later, you said. Well, dearest Aqilah, 'later' you will go to your bedroom, collapsing on your queen-sized bed while imagining sweet things or even thinking of how great your life could be then fall asleep. Here's some advice, SPM is around the corner. 12 days ahead. Less than a month either 2 weeks. Seriously, don't take this for granted. Study harder, achieve best, and built your own Château. Live happily ever after. If you're staying like this, trust me you'll die in sorrow. Living amidst hardships and poor. I know you don't want that to ever happen in your life.

#NotesForMe.
#Cuak gila, Ya Allah.
#12 days before doomsday :(








*pictures dekat cam aku tak upload lagi. Maybe later. InsyaAllah. :)




While otp dengan monyet. :p

Him : Graduasi nanti parents awak ke datang?
Me : Tak tau lagi. *cehh sedih*
Him : Awak nak tak Amar bawak jumpa mak Amar? *line tak clear this time*
Me : Ha?
Him: Amar nak ajak jumpa mak nanti. Tapi kalau awak tak nak takpa lah.
Me : Gila tak nak? Hahaha. Nakk. Awwwh. hahaha
Him : Okay
Me : *senyum soghe soghe* :p






Blogging guna tab bukan idea yang baik. k macam skrip cerita dekat Astro Ceria kan.

oh hi. hari ni Economy cari gaduh. macam apa tah susahnya. :O first first dah sangkut. Alhamdulillah, part tu jawapan betul. hihihi. kalau tak, memang meletuplah kertas tu. -.-

Seronok kakak mira onyet and kakak sarah onyet jumpa PooPoo tadi. :''>
kakak fatin onyet pun sama. semua suka PooPoo kan? hikhikhik. kakak izzah diam je, dia focus study tadi. lagi lagi exam Eco kan, makanan :p

Fatin touching dengan kite sebab takda gambar dia masa buat background blog ni dulu. alaaa, yang duluuuu tu. kakak fatin janganlah sedih, nanti kite letak gambar kakak besar besar. kite sayang kakak, kakak takyah la risau. :p

*rasa gay sedikit ya
:p


Dear Economy,

   We were friends before. I even pernah dapat A for you. Please be nice. Tak sekarang pun SPM jadilah. I love you. :( I don't mean to let you down time trial. Memang susah time tu. You tanya I soalan pelik pelik. Mana I nak jawab. Okaylah, I salah. I minta maaf. Tapi this time, please. Be nice. Kalau tak, I mandrem you. Kbai.








Assalamualaikum and greetings :)

So, all of the form 5 students are now busy sitting for Gerak Gempur SPM. and fyi, SPM is around the corner a.k.a 27 days left. Haiyyama, tidur tak senang weh. :/

95's , esok kita ada paper Science and Chems, after rehat ada English. All in paper 2. Poems keluar He Had Such Quiet Eyes. Novel is novel lah o.O

You're welcome :p
All the best untuk esok, I hope all of us scored in English. Mana lah tau 100% A. Cewah. haha . K aku nak tidur. Bye you olsss ♥

Serious doh. Rasa nak meletup pun ada.


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Janganlah buat qila tension lagi, please. :(


Assalamualaikum and greetings.

Hmm, I'm not in a good mood, currently. Well, ofc lah bila banyak sangat hal menyemak dekat kepala kan. Ya Allah. Relax la qila, please. Tension solves nothing. Okay can I scream? I need to yell every word I want to say. Ergh. Sabar je lah. -.-

Assalamualaikum and greetings :)
Currently all f the SPM candidates were busy with their preparations. 33 days to go, fellas :)
I hope that all of us have made excellent preparations to face it. We can do it. Surely.

How's trial, if you might ask.
Well, I wasn't doing well. I screwed up a little. Well, actually, a lot. Lol. The good thing for me is that I don't failed any, and C is my worst grade. Alhamdulillah, but it's nothing thou. I really need to drill up to score for SPM.

Dear beloved readers,
I know I've been neglecting this blog for almost a month. I'm sorry. But I'm back, anyway. Me wove you readers.

Now I think I talk like an adult. Lol, why so formal, Qila? o.O