Aqilah Azmi

“Aqilah Azmi's Territory”

Saturday, 29 December 2012 || 18:56

I hate to beg. You knew. I won't knee on you, begging. I won't. Tell me how ego I am but I'm still with my decision. I hate to cry. I hate to fking cry. I'm tired. If you were me, you'll know how horrible I feel. Look, I love the relationship we had now. And I love you. You broke my heart. You knew that. Frankly, I cry every night, every time we text and fight. I'm weak? Guess who made me this way. I won't bow or kneed. I won't. I'm not saying that I don't want you to do things you love to do. I'm just saying, at least tell me that you're doing it. Why do you have to yell? And get mad? And even fight with me? I thought you're the best. I really thought you're the one for me. I was wrong. People change. What about your feelings towards me? Are they changing, too?

Friday, 28 December 2012 || 10:34

I had enough of facing those agony situations where I got like a pile of work to do, had conflict with some of people. It' kind of hard to balance my work and social life right now. I got friends who utterly wanted to see me and set their dates for a gathering, I have a boyfriend which I need to pick up calls and reply his precious texts. I have a job that has it's curfew set. I have bunches of work to finish before the deadline. Sometimes, my boyfriend and I fought about me being so busy with works. I know what I mean to you. The fact that you're someone special to me kills me when you don't talk to me. It's okay, I would rather hear those painful words from you rather than you left me hanging just like this. I know I'm merely assuming things but my instinct tells me you don't miss me as much as I do :( It is suck to feel this way but there's nothing I can do. We talked less frequently nowadays. I just take this as 'you're understanding my works and chores', and I really hope you do.

Thursday, 27 December 2012 || 23:28

I don't really love to dress up. I mean, I don't wear necklaces or anything on my wrist unless it is mandatory. I love to wear something comfortable, for real. Weather it looks nice or not, it is not on the top of the list why I should choose it. This was the first day wearing that shawl, which is actually bought from Cambodia by my big brother, Salman. My friend, who is also a co-worker, Izzah and I, myself had our fun moment together trying new styles on wearing shawls. You know, I love to camwhore-ing with my fellas.

Pfft yes. I've gained some kgs, I can surely tell.

Wednesday, 26 December 2012 || 21:05

OH MY GOD,
WHAT A COPYCAT.

|| 20:55

I’m currently missing a bunch of people. Ever since my last paper & the fact that I already graduated, I lost touch with some of my classmates. Everyone seems busy with their own business now. Same goes to Amar, the beloved one. Sometimes we don't even text. And when we do, it takes like 3 hours non-stop. It’s tedious to balance work and personal life, sorry Amar. :/

For all I know is that I have fewer friends now. The girl who was once with a cheerful personality is now wishing that somebody could come up and say that you are not alone.

Sunday, 23 December 2012 || 23:32

My dad bought me this album just now. He knew how much I adored her. Man, just how I wish to see her face to face. Talk to her? I might probably be dead :|

Sincerely, an Adeler

|| 23:26

Assalamualaikum and greetings. Apparently, my blog is dead. It has been days since I last update something but honestly, I don't even have time to write something on my blogspot. Well, lately, I am kinda fighting against time because my jobs and chores are pressurizing me to a great extent. No more time for FUN anymore. :( But, I still had fun with my friends. Thanks to my baybahh that make my life not so infernal.

Qila x

|| 23:20

The moment when an important person just simply walk away from your life. People come and go, yes I know. But seriously, there are certain people in your life whom you actually visualize an image of them in your future. The one who shows happiness in their eyes when they're spending time with you. They know how to make you feel so special. I'm so mad at myself for being so overly attached to someone who don't even care about me. Anyway, thanks for all the memories. Farewell.

|| 15:54

TRUE

Pangkor Island

Saturday, 22 December 2012 || 19:39

Oh my, that Pink Vans, comel gila. But it's kinda old van, so when you take a ride in it, it produces some creepy sound that will freak you out. :/

K random :|

Yayyy, snorkelling!

Look, it's soooo greeen :)

See the huge rock there? They called it 'the croc's head'. Well, yeah it does look like. See? The one on your left. Oh and that's me bradah :p

Menangis kenapa -.-

Mum being a photographer :p

Le shops and restaurants :D

|| 19:16

Man I was really thinking to post some own-made stories on my blogspot. But I'm afraid that I don't have that much time to create things and explore my ideas. I'll just hope. :/

I'll have a day off tomorrow. The sound of the Chinese guy drilling my house wall echoed in my ears. Urgh. Well I can't blame him anyway. Thanks for those airconds and the LED, Chinese guy. By the way, you're kinda cute :/

ALRIGHT, KIDDING. :O

|| 10:02

Sarah is going back today ;D

Can't wait for re-gathering with all of my pweennns :p

Got to work. Bye guys <3

|| 01:28

I'm re-defining my blogspot page

Sorry for the inconvenience.

*teehee*

|| 01:15

Hi everyone! I'm back for about few days and two weeks. Wow this blog is really getting dusty. *wipe**wipe*

Well, my high school moment has officially ended and I'm more than happy to say that my holidays have been fabulous! Pretty much spending with families. My cousins from Kuching were here for a week. Although it is just few days, it was awesome roller coaster ride. I've bought things for my beloved best friends, not all of them, not yet. I guess. :O

Oh and pictures? They aren't here. :( I'm using my sister's laptop now so.. I guess I'll upload it next time. InsyaAllah.

Till then,
xoxo

Sunday, 9 December 2012 || 11:53

Happy upcoming 8 months :D I love you.

Annnd gambar tu hanya untuk ilustrasi semata mata. ;)

IMK

|| 11:17

Meet Sarah ;)

Yayyy it's about to be overrr :p

Look, minyak :p

Saturday, 8 December 2012 || 19:58

Scrolling down your shitlane , thinking lie lie lie.

Oh look, you copied this!

I'm amazed.

Thursday, 6 December 2012 || 23:55

I think you probably wouldn't know how much I miss spending time with you. I miss the late night phone calls we used to have. We talked about everything and anything. The laughters and shy conversations we had confessing our true feelings towards each other. I constantly fight back my tiredness whenever we're on the phone because I just couldn't get enough of your voice. I lied when I said I'm not tired. I believe every woman does that. But anyway, holding back my tiredness just to talk to you is worth it. I wish you know how much I appreciate you in my life.

Loving you :)

|| 23:38

Hi! I'm back updating for a quite longer post I suppose.

I'm gonna have to start working at Mum's shop tomorrow. Well, I can't really work outside of my housing area, since my family have our own shop. I will begin at 10, and insyaAllah, close at 7. Kinda thinking what to do during my working time. :|

I was really thinking of hanging out with my fellas. I hope I hope I hope. Why? Because:

1. I wanted to spend more time with my best friends.

2. It's been quite a month I don't go out or anything.

3. I want to shop. A LOT.

4. I need to buy things.

5. I want to have fun.

6. I have got my first VISA card :D

7. Being camwhores together with my bff <3

I'll have a day off on Sunday. So I guess I'm gonna going out and buy some things. What kind of things? I don't know. I'm now thinking of buying ps3 or xbox. But Mum is the obstacle now. She's kinda not agreeing me to buy it. Ala ala ala alaa :/

Will be right back

xoxo

LST

|| 23:23

Flying Sarah >:)

Lunch break :)

Izzah was at home this time. So, I guess it's just three of us then :|

After habis payypahh :p

|| 21:21

SAY IT AGAIN

I DOUBLE DARE YOU SAY IT AGAIN

OUT LOUD

Tuesday, 4 December 2012 || 18:51

*click untuk enlarge*

Sorry, aku tersangat malas nak type and things. So capture and done. I don't expect you to understand my situation anyway. Good day.

|| 18:17

You're not accepting me all of your hearts.
Damn.
Thanks, I look like a looser now.

SRH

|| 18:05

So one of my teammates is going to Italy on the 15th of December for a fking vacation. MAIGOD MAN, HOW JEALOUS. you lucky bstrd :p Have fun and take care of yourself alright :)

Bawak lah sisa sisa kenangan manis kau balik Malaysia bagi aku :p hahahahahahah.